[This journal is for ~Shizuka-Kurogane. So if you aren't her, dont' know her, or don't really feel like reading this you don't have to.]


I'm not quite sure how to start this, but I figure I should. Because you need to hear it right now.

I'm sure, you of all people know how SHITTY this stupid world is. How absolutely pointless and absurd it sometimes seems to even keep going through everything. It doesn't seem worth it, why bother when It could still possibly get worse.

I mean you aren't that kid sitting in Afria starving, so that means.. it has to get worse. There's nothing you can do about it.

I felt like that before, you of all people should know this feeling very well. Because you were like this too. I was even an outcast with my family, the black sheep who's dreams are far to unrealistic to ever come true.

But everything changed the day I met you, one day.. seven or eight years ago. Of course, We can't say that we hit it off. Isn't that the clishe thing that all best friends say to one another? "We hit it off right away and we like, totally knew we were going to be friends forever!" No... We didn't know that at all, hell, we didn't even really talk that much.

I'm not.. sure what it was, but there is no doubt in my mind that it was anime [PROBABLY NARUTO. WE FAIL D:] that brough us together. We started to talk more, even rped a little bit! [god we were newbs... Huh Awoo?] Then it was our natural, we were perfect role-play partners. We knew exactly what the other was looking for in a story, and together we were able to weave.. some pretty amazing adventures.

You were that person, Kate. You turned my unrealistic dreams INTO a reality. And then.. we started to talk, more personal things. We learned about our not so fairytale situations at home, school, and even online. Once we started talking about those things.. we realized how we could understand each other, and help each other grow from these.. situations.

[Hell it got your through Bob didn't it?]

Give a couple more years.. and I started to realize something [THIS SOUNDS LIKE A CONFESSION.. I LIKE PENIS I FREAKIN SWEAR DDD:]

I started to realize that you meant much more to me than the friends you would see on TV, or even the friends that I had in real life. You.. meant more to me than my flesh and blood family did. You WERE my sister, whether it not be whatever 'created' us had decided, I knew then it must have been a mistake. We were created to be with each other, and to help each other through this shitty world.

Before I met you.. I used to struggle just to find people who would like me for who I was.. the weird.. short pale girl who just dreamed too much. And now.. now I could care less if everyone, everyone in this WHOLE god damn world hated me. If I had you by my side, as my sister, then none of that would matter. I love you too damn much.

And even though.. they say there is no picture perfect friendship. They say that even the closest friends fight the coldest, cruelest of fights.. I think that our friendship IS picture perfect. BECAUSE we fight, because we're real human beings who can share everything with each other. We don't have to share likes, and this causes so many horrible arguments.. and both of us say things we regret.

But the picture perfect thing about that is... none of our arguments have ever lasted longer than a day, did you ever notice this? A good couple of hours maybe, hell, I think we've gone a whole night before! But every time we start talking again, apologies may even come short, but we ALWAYS manage to go back to laughing and being dorks. Horrible Horrible dorks that just dream too much together.

I love you KateLynn [Awoo. Shizuka. What the hell ever.] More than anyone I will ever meet in this short life time we have in this world. No one will ever mean as much to me as you do, and even though I am still young, I can PROMISE You that. I want you to be with me until we're old cranky ladies sitting in rocking chairs on the front porch of our old people's home yelling at little kids to get off the yard, and fantasizing about hott anime bishies that we remember.. from ages and ages back.

I am so blessed [OH GOD THAT SOUNDS RELIGIOUS NVM] Gifted.. [Now I sound like an X-men].. Okay. It's just fucking Orgasmictastic that I met you. So I want you to remember that FOREVER and EVER AND EVER. And I WON'T Ever let you forget it!

And you know, because I've been crying off and on writing this that it has to be true! I don't get this emotional for no reason- okay I do. But that's one week a month that we like to forget about xP

Thank you, for showing me the awesome in this shitty world, and I hope you'll continue spending it with me <3

[Lol the mood icon is misleading isn't it? <_<]